Unsatisfied

Sometimes I feel like there’s a void I need to fill and that is why I keep myself busy, or try to, at all times. When I was married I was going to school full time and working full time. I ended up finishing my degree with online courses so that I could be at home as much as possible but I had little to no free time regardless. Right when I finished school I moved on to the next thing, the next hobby, the next project. I ended up buying a couple of project cars and amassing a collection of action figures and collectibles in the process. I started writing more and more and started publishing my books. I bought more property. Started remodeling my house slowly. I think at times I overload myself with things to keep my mind occupied because it becomes a mix of a.)I’m afraid of all the thoughts running through my head at times & b.)I always feel like I need to be doing something productive.

I am never satisfied.

Out of the project cars, which include a 1986 Chevrolet Caprice, a 1985 Buick Regal, and a 1994 Acura Integra, I finished 2 out of 3. Now they just sit there. Maybe I should sell them but I don’t want to part with them though. I already promised my father he could have the Integra…it is in dire need of a paint job haha. Sorry dad. The Caprice just sits in the garage gathering dust and I would like to keep her but I think I might be better off selling her. Which leads me to another problem – I want to build a bigger garage on my property. Yeah I know, terrible idea. Last but not least is the Regal, the first car I ever owned, even if it was briefly. I have plans for her but it would require me to learn welding if I want to redo the body work myself. An engine swap is also in her future but then which route should I go? She sits on the back burner for now, stored safely away.
Here is the Caprice. I wanted to change the rims on her but I decided to stop while I was ahead.

This is what the Regal will look like one day haha but not yet:

The collection of action figures and the like that sits in my office, which looks more like a museum at this point might be inventoried and sold off piece by piece with the exception of The Simpsons, which my son would like to keep. It all started with a handful of action figures and just grew from there. I think I enjoyed the thrill of finding good deals and gems that no one else found. Some of them I re-sold right away for a profit so that I could buy ones I was more interested in. Oh well, like everything else this too came to an end.

There is also my gaming collection that has grown over the years. Not only physical games on the PS4 and consoles but digital games on my Steam account as well. My brother and I are alike in that aspect. We both collect and collect and we have games still in wrappers awaiting their turn to be played. Maybe it’s a deep rooted thing that we didn’t have all the things we wanted or would have liked to experience when we were younger so now that we can manage to afford them, we do.

Did I mention I also own and operate www.aceinkprinting.com ? it’s a small custom shirt printing business that I started last year. Anything to hustle and keep me busy.

I think if I had to choose one things that kept me the happiest it would have to be writing. I’ve noticed that when I write my mind can travel away from reality and I don’t have to be here in the now. I can make up whatever I want. I can go wherever I want. I can be whoever or whatever I choose to be. I am not bound to the confines of my everyday life. It feels good to run away if only for a little bit…

Do any of you guys feel the same? Always looking for your next adventure or project? Any interesting hobby ideas you would like to share?

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